Friday, January 28, 2011

Two Years

Two years ago today my father died. I am thankful my last words to him were I love you, but I do regret not being at the hospital when he died. He was waiting to have a CT Scan so I went back to work with the plan of being back at the hospital when he was admitted to his room. He died during the CT Scan.

A few close friends and my husband have said you should not regret going back to work, you had to do so. Well, regrets are like feelings - they are what they are. I know I will see my father again in heaven and I've thankful for that, but I miss him as you miss your loved ones who have gone on before you.

It's amazing 2 years have come and gone, it seems so short in some ways and like 100 years in others. The ebb and flow of life. Dying, living, mourning, joy, tears and laughter - the natural order in God's plan. He is with us every step of the way. He does not abandon us or forsake us. He is ever faithful to His covenant promises.

Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” So we say with confidence, “The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. "

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

PS - my great nephew should arrive within the hour!

PPS - He's here, screaming and crying - he obviously takes after his mother...


Karen said...

The Lord's brought you to mind and I've been praying for you the past couple of days. I knew the time was close but was afraid I'd missed the anniversary. I just figured the extra prayers wouldn't hurt anyway. I guess I should have known His timing is perfect. :)

love you!

annette said...

I have such a hard time believing it's been two years. I imagine it seems like longer in many ways to you. Isn't His timing sweet to let Randi's baby be born this day. Full circle of life. . .bittersweet. I know you miss your daddy. Sending hugs your way. Love, Annette

Cheryl Barker said...

As you've been missing your dad this past week, we've been missing Don's mom. She passed away last Monday. I was blessed to be with her as she took her last breath here on earth and her first one in heaven. A sad day for us but a happy one for her...