Thursday, February 5, 2009

The Fog is Lifting

Not to say I will not cry more over my father's death and don't need more prayer, but today I woke up at the normal time and felt like making coffee, I felt like reading the daily readings from Exodus, I even felt like going to the car wash...my car is filthy, I stood there long enough in the cool breeze to get the outer most layer of dirt off the car.

The sun is out, Goldfinches, Pine Siskins, our usual Dove, Woodpecker, Cardinals, Blue Jays, and Sparrows are at the feeders. I want to play hookie and plant delphinium, petunias, and pansies I bought last night. Burgundy petunias, light blue delphinium, light blue and dark blue pansies. May sound like a weird colour combination, but it's very pretty.

I feel so good today because I have been lifted up in prayer by friends, family, and complete strangers. I feel so good today because I know where my father is and he was secure knowing he was saved.

There will more tears...but there will be laughter as well. Scripture tells us:

And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. 4He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

A cheerful heart is good medicine,but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.

The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.

7 comments:

luvmy4sons said...

Oh...blessings to you sweet sister. This is a pain I have yet to feel...only those of my mother and father in law. I know that was a sorrow in itself. My heart goes out to you. Glad the God of mercy is lifting the fog of sorrow. Prayers are going up for you. Such a sweet spirit finding joy in the world around you in the midst of your loss. Hugs and prayers for you today!

Linda said...

There is so much comfort in the promises of God Annette. It is so good to hear the way He has been with you through this difficult time. I pray He will continue to uphold you and give you His perfect peace.
I know I'm going to love this study on Esther. The Lord has a way of bringing into our lives exactly what we need at just the right time.

Paula V said...

Ahh...Psalm 28:7 is the last verse you quoted. That's been written on my heart for years. Well at least this part: The Lord is my strength and shield. My heart trusts in Him and I am helped. Never got to the last part, I guess.

I don't think the color combination is wierd. My question is this: where in the world do you live that you can be planted this early? I can't even see the grass for the feet of snow piled everywhere.

I'm so glad the fog is lifting. I'm positive there will be many more days (unbeknownst to you) that will bring tears. I lost my step mom over two years ago and I would sporatically cry just on a whim...something will bring a memory or tear. Fortunately, those tear usually bring a release. I think there's a little pain still in us after death and we need those quick cries to release more of the pain. Make sense? I hope.

Abba's Girl said...

Paula...I live in southeast TX...this is what we plant from fall to spring, it croaks by June or July, though I had 1 snapdragon survive the summer and Ike...

Molly said...

Oh Annette, I had no idea. I am so sorry. But like you said you know where he is and that is something.
When Greg Lauri lost his son just recently, he said people would come up to him and say "I am sorry you lost your son," And he would reply, "I didn't lose him, I know right where he is."
Blessings to you sister,
Siesta OC

Wendy said...

I think planting petunias is wonderful therapy. Nature always soothes us, doesn't it?
Blessings

Anonymous said...

Planting and weeding seem very appropriate at a time like this. A cup of coffee and even a good cry are all cleansing and healing. Your heart is very tender to all the things of God right now, and He is your Great Reward especially at times like these. I am/have been praying for your heart and your sweet mom. Love you, Annette G